my heart is an empty room; come, set up camp.

Wednesday, 05 August 2009

  • For a long time, this journal was one of my favorite things. My head would get swimmy, and like someone afraid of the dark woken in the middle of the night, I'd reach for xanga like my light switch. Lately, I still find myself thinging about it, tapping out blog entries on my head, but I'm content to let them die there.

    I never had anything important to say here, and nothing I cherished but the stories; mine, and others that I've come to love through this journal. I still do love everybody, and still find amusement in the way you guys think, comfort in your words. nia nia bo bia, one of my favorite girls who always puts my heart through the woodchipper with her glorious glorious words and whom I've come to love like a long lost sister, tally, who means more to me than he possibly knows and who I've missed somethin' fierce since we've not talked much, katie who had entirely too much time to talk, austin who is moving to my home state, and I don't have to talk about Ethan, who I would have known if not for this journal, although possibly not as well.

    I have no desire to cut ties with anyone, but I didn't want my last entry to be a dangler. I may flutter back here soon, and certainly will with major updates, and of course, soon, with my update, which will probably include a livejournal name and an invitation to watch me grow there, mostly fiction, and I hope you'll like the newest adventure I've embarked on, Crooked Trees, about loving your crooked neighbor with all your crooked hearts, and like Whitman, and John Green, imagined, our roots that get tangled and keep us together.

    Love you all more than words can say, and that's all I can say for now. Hey, also: josh and gizzy gizzy gizmo, you need a facebizzle.

Sunday, 14 June 2009

  • . . . I realized and/or decided today that "Hel-the-Sister-in-Law" is a prostitute. Or, was. And faceblind. Obviously my misogynistic tendencies and inability to write females nicely strikes again.

    Also, I watched the Royal Pains pilot tonight. I'm such a sucker -- I'm completely in love with Tucker Bryant after one episode of being a guest/patient. I hope he turns into a regular. Also, I need to figure out how to edit a TV Tropes page to add "black card reference." :> I love those.

    HANK: We need to get you to a hospital!
    TUCKER: The Hamptons Heritage -- no way man, Dad calls it the local cemetery.
    HANK: What would your dad suggest we do??
    TUCKER: Go into my wallet and get the little black card that says American Express on it.

     

    Lulsy squees. haha, seriously, I am so lame -- I'm about to go rewatch on hulu.

Sunday, 07 June 2009

  • We had a Demon's Lexicon read through tonight. I feel compelled to write loads and loads of fic. I'll try not to. (*But Alan named him.* What's more fic-demanding than that??)

Tuesday, 28 April 2009



  • As you probably know ;] that's SRB's book, The Demons Lexicon. In Japanese. Right there next to Harry Potter. The cover was done by the guy who does Fullmetal Alchemist, which means Baby Sarah, who went by Maya on the interwebs since she was fourteen because she wasn't allowed to use her name, is all grown up and astonishing publishers weekly.

    The May first review from Kirkus. This actually means a lot, fyi. Like, it's a professional guide along with Publishers Weekly and Booklist.

    THE DEMON’S LEXICON

    Written by Sarah Rees Brennan

    A fresh voice dancing between wicked humor and crepuscular sumptuousness invigorates this urban fantasy. Askew of everyday England there lies a darker world, where power-hungry magicians sacrifice innocents to demons and their victims peddle protection with like ruthlessness. Nick Ryves has spent all of his 16 years therein, perpetually on the run, his father murdered, his mother driven mad, his crippled older brother the only person he can trust. When two desperate teens seek out their aid, he will find the last few certainties of his life stripped away. Nick is an astonishing protagonist: vicious, deadly, callous, nearly feral, all but consumed with rage, yet rendered irresistibly attractive by his mordant wit, his clear-eyed recognition of his flaws and his terrified bafflement at his own fleeting moments of tenderness. Every character hides secrets, every conversation hints at double and triple meanings. From the pitch-perfect opening paragraph to the heartbreaking final pages, the narrative peels back layers of revelation, deftly ratcheting up the tension and horror to a series of shattering climaxes. The conclusion, while utterly satisfying, also leaves room for the story to continue. Delicious. (Starred Review)


    Where will you guys be in June? Cause I'll be chillin in line. :]

Wednesday, 22 April 2009

  • i can't decide if i'm too harsh.

    half of me just wants to crawl under a rock.
    part of me is furious that i'm so upset over this.
    someone deserves a girl who's, um, nice. and that's not really me.

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

  • Last night someone let me rant for an hour. "I feel like it was all planned," I told him, tucked against him, "I mean, think about it, if you wanted to hurt me and have no reprucussions for it, what better way, right? I mean, who's going to take my side when I'm chewing him out about trying to be helpful?"

    Then I went home and blogged about it. And I know you saw that. You commented on it. But then you deleted it and I breathed a sigh of relief. Obviously, I'm never going to know about it, I though, he's glad he had some warning.

    I don't have any strength left in my body, and my own father thinks I'm a petty idiot because you and your stupid friend "kept me from getting scratched up." I can't even breathe under the weight of the stupidity.

     

    If you don't respect me, I don't want you here.

Monday, 20 April 2009

  • This is what I hate about boys: they are not capable of letting you solve your own problems. This is why I never ever like to tell them. Especially if they're physical tasks. I hate hate hate it.

Thursday, 16 April 2009

  • [vague]Heading off to support Bee in a hot second. I messed up, like always, lost inside the flash-flood in my head.

    On the upside, something cool happened. [/vague]

Wednesday, 15 April 2009

Saturday, 11 April 2009

  • I feel like I'm running on empty. As long as there's adrenaline & rhythm in my veins, I can keep going, but I'm stretched pretty thin. (No pun intended. )

    Also, I don't think people understand that I fricken love to be made fun of. Tease me back.
    lol

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  • deciding to be less angry doesnt get my bush back & now i can't have help for the part i wanted to share :/ planting on my own this week
  • i am not very good at this thing called life. i'll end up the bitter spinster with 24 cats, mark my words
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  • Omelettes
    I just realized again that Xanga has chatboards! Two years AFTER I last realized it! Go me, and my remembering stuff I forgot about for ages!By the way, not sure if I've mentioned this, but I've totally written two-and-a-half chapters in the past three days. By which I mean the past five days, ac
  • PrincessCarissa
    ::BBBUURRPP::Excuse me! ;D
  • Omelettes
    Yayness! By the way, I got third place at the Judo tournament. Awesomes!!! I knew Ouchi Gari was a good throw for me. The last match ended in an almost-concussion and a badly bruised hand muscle, so my typing speed is impaired. I was on the ground, and the guy picked me up and body slamme
  • pandasp0ts
    Thats cool. x3 It ended up kind of lame; y'kn ow, the whole "we're a panel of people to preach at you. chyeah," and we kept up a running commentary like heathens.
  • greyhavens49420
    Hi Kate! How are you doing this week? Sorry I couldn't make it to youth last wednesday but something came up. God Bless, grey out